Life and Me... Memoirs of a church girl

If you have ever been close to a loved one or dear friend when your heart is broken and you feel like shattering, and they just wrap you up and allow you wail. You are always grateful to just be held. If you were scared and then someone you trust a lot just shows up, the embrace you receive sends you instantly to a place of comfort. If you are an outlier, a loner and probably don't roll with the crowd, when you get into your zone there's nothing that can be compared with that. When paul prays that the peace of God should garrison your heart, that is exactly what he is telling you to allow yourself experience. The fortress that God provides comes with peace. A barracks that is not seen usually just felt. The month of December is ending on an interesting note for me. From Night of worship to Experience. I have been someone that is used to having intermittent breaks and the feeling of self reliance and macho because of my self perceived  competence makes it very difficult to so...

Today i choose to wait       It may not be the popular or conventional choice,  but your plan Q is far better than my plan A** anyday. Today i choose to hope       It can only be delayed it can never be denied.  It is within your power to turn things around in my favour. Today i choose to love,        Its only in His nature that I can understand His fullness and  live the life He has called me to. Tempest raging, fires flaring with earnest yearning, I wait for your salvation.  You are the anchor to my soul, my hope and stay.                                                                        - Me. Had quite a number of pendulum moments this weekend and I had to keep reminding myself that head or tail I win not because I can, ...

Are you ready? In the light of the recent press release by the Munroe family, I began to wonder am i ready? What has God placed in your hand?,  what report will he find? The story of the talents that  people love quoting is one that comes to mind. Usually people focus on the volume. Two producing two, five producing five, things like that. But the most important lesson is that there was productivity, movement and growth. That is what God expects in your house, church, family, school, office, interactions and relationships with people. If that productivity doesn't exist, then you actually are not living the God kind of life. Wherever you find yourself, the office with the annoying colleague, at home with mean neighbours, you are meant to cause change. You have a kind of life to live that anything short of that would make the record of your existence void.                                 ...

Phillipians 4:6-8 (MSG) Don't fret or worry. Instead of worrying, pray. Let petitions and praises shape your worries into prayers, letting God know your concerns. Before you know it, a sense of God's wholeness, everything coming together for good, will come and settle you down. It's wonderful what happens when Christ displaces worry at the center of your life. I have said and heard this words many times. But i just saw it for the first time that 1. When you worry, you are easing substituting prayer in your mind. 2. Worries and Prayers can be shaped. 3. God knows everything but you can still ALLOW HIM KNOW your concerns. 4. Putting christ or worry at the center of your life is up to you.  Recently i have had to question peace. What is the best way to explain peace?  Is it a sense of feeling empty, bland or void of emotion?  Now i realise that the feeling like your life is all over the place, splattered like a juicy tomato against the wall and it seems like someo...

Recently i have been exposed to some songs. Not the regular gigs but some that stir something deep in my soul. There's a difference between singing, song and sung. Many people that are sufficient in themselves would not have the slightest idea what this means. Its a sign of desperation, utter realisation that you are the end of the road. Its really cute and warm and comforting when your friends ask you this question or someone that really fancies you and you aren't giving them the time of day. Out of the whole song this is the only line that calls to me. It is very easy to get swallowed up in the familiar reverie that I've been church and  christian my whole life, but yet you are as independent and detached. A great icon went to join the line up on Sunday and everybody has been sad and solemn. When i heard about it, a salute came from deep within me. I knew he got it. But when i heard that his daughter and team were there, it was really scary for me. The fact that t...

"Fashion is about dressing according to what’s fashionable. Style is more about being yourself.”- Oscar De La Renta. Growing up was pretty interesting because of the evolution of trends, i have seen some particular themes go out of vogue and make a grand come back. Its pretty inspiring that a fashion goon would refer you back to yourself when it comes to style because at the end of the day its not about the flashy lights or loud music, its about you. Transitioning into early teens, there is the need to receive the right kind of values and this sometimes translated into the community making sure that in your parent's bid to make a living, they did not allow you fall off the bus. One of the things that i distinctly remember is the issue of boxers or no boxers for girls, then the hazy line between where to and where not to wear shorts and trousers to. On one of such days, when i knew the "concerned public" would be in attendance; I just did the needful, wore an...

There is a tendency for everybody to feel that they know you. Many times everybody, yes everybody falls into that deception that they can figure another human out. But at the end of the day, nobody can ever be explained away. If not there wouldn't be any element of surprise, no magic, no miracle and no life. The earth would have been full of zombies graded by a particular system. Evolution, seasons and times would not exist. But as long as they are fashion trends, cultural changes and evolutions, life as we know it would continually be one evolving beauty, constantly changing and moving. As you meet people try to listen to them you will discover that they are not as bad as they seem. Quite a number of times you will have run ins with scum bags and schmucks but at the end of the day you will miss very important experiences,people and friends because you didn't listen. Sadly enough they will never be great not because dont have it in them to be great but because it was only yo...

I was a bit jealous when my neighbour and some friends (actually her friends i was meant to attach myself ) went for a girly date and i couldn't go.  The plan was to roam round the mall, watch a movie and head home. But being local girls like myself (No offence ladies) a particular somebody was almost passing out in her heels so they bought dunlop (actually flats), then watched Lucy because her name is Lucy (don't worry, they don't know your surname) and came home. When I asked about the movie, they didn't sound too pleased (No thanks to iroko and the likes).  Fast forward a month later and i see free wireless,  and lucy (don't do illegal ish). I downloaded it with mixed feelings Suddenly the movie started (popcorn less, movie dateless and sodaless), but i was grateful that i wasn't in the cinema. I have not yet recovered  (literally). It brought home a Sunday School lesson (or at least what they had been trying to teach us anyways). A girl going on her d...

So i love looking at wedding pictures. For me its a beautiful thing to see all the effort put into creating new beginnings.  Particularly love wedding photographers because you must be a beautiful person to be able to capture most of the emotions that go into the whole event.  The way it is solemn and beautiful at the same time, the exchange of vows, the preparation to lose yourself and identity to someone else.  The selflessness of being willing to share your life with someone that you have no guarantee will turn out alright but you just believe that as long as there's you it is fine.  The loss of a parent that gives away a child, you can never tell if your child just brought home a paedophile or an insane person and is passing some weird heritage into your lineage, i mean their children will be your grandchildren. But you have to trust that on the dark and gloomy days they will have each other and they will be enough. The couple that says the vo...