Life and Me... Memoirs of a church girl

Tanzania 2017 Cover me I want to run and hide,  cover me don't let them see the scars,  how will you know where to heal, when you don't know where to go? "Drown the noise", "find a rhythm" How does that even work when you have become deaf from dancing to a single drum? How do you learn to dance when you have your feet on replay to a rhythm you don't know? Can I just sit here and the water flow Drowning my fears and filling my soul "You'll get whitewashed", they said "At least I will feel something", I think Because the lifelessness of indifference Generated by 3 worded " I don't know" Makes life slip by to maintain the peace While your heart has in clear details, the catastrophic mistake you may or may not be making

Hey guys, *dusting cobwebs*  Yeah it has been a long break. I missed writing. So for sometime i have been feeling dull and honestly not the 'everybody hates me, nobody likes me kind'. But the 'we are on the grind, we are fast and furious' but at the close of work, the to do list still has many unchecked to dos and you go 'well i can't deal'. This is then followed by the 'one day at a time' thing to 'just live in the moment' and wham! a month has gone and you have not really moved. The worst hit was my fellowship. Yeah i'm in church, yeah i work but in the edge of my wrapper (if you have an African granny that ties wrapper you will know that's where all the good stuff is) i had nothing new just recycled stuff. So i saw this  Joyce Meyer  3030 challenge , i signed up and hoped for the best. I knew there was a but when i did not sign up for the daily reminder but the weekly one ( unread inbox message troubles don't ask)...

Today i choose to wait       It may not be the popular or conventional choice,  but your plan Q is far better than my plan A** anyday. Today i choose to hope       It can only be delayed it can never be denied.  It is within your power to turn things around in my favour. Today i choose to love,        Its only in His nature that I can understand His fullness and  live the life He has called me to. Tempest raging, fires flaring with earnest yearning, I wait for your salvation.  You are the anchor to my soul, my hope and stay.                                                                        - Me. Had quite a number of pendulum moments this weekend and I had to keep reminding myself that head or tail I win not because I can, ...