Life and Me... Memoirs of a church girl

There are times when you hear the word of God or keep it close and then something stares you right in the face and they well up like a spring inside of you. For me, in those times, I look for quick fixes like intensive service and accelerated giving. When those things don't fill up my feelings. I go around doing "bami allah" looking for pity, prayer, anything you can spare really. This is until I can find something that "helps" ( complete with the hand gesture). Three times in my life, I have encountered issues that all these things didn't work for and I couldn't run. I had to sit still on my hands and wait.  When I had to hear who to marry, for instance, I had to come into a place where all the noise was shut out and when I had been sure, it seemed like I was high. It was a quiet stubbornness and even when issues came up around the choice, my heart was fixed.  When issues that come heavy laden with self-doubt show up, once your faith is fixed, there...

My flag flew at half mast this week. I lost a friend. It still sounds strange because we have not seen in the longest age. Everyone I mean everyone had something nice and pretty to say about her. I don't know if I have ever seen her cry. She was an encourager, a friend, a sister. Daisy : "fresh, wholesome, and energetic" image and that truly was our Daisy. When I think of the thing we will miss about her, I also think of the things we are grateful for in her life. Two weeks ago I would have been scared but today and now, I have peace that she is alright. God loves her (present continuous) and for me that is enough. I celebrate her life, her love, her warmth, her legacy, her kids, her home and even as every time I remember her I just cry there's this deep seated loss like I will no longer hear her praise God for her family milestones, I will no longer see her smile in mischief over something new. What i remember is her swaying with block s...

  That was the sound of my parent's toast at their wedding many years ago.  When I discovered it was either we've found it or we've got it, I decided that at my wedding we would be sure enough to say we've found it (so they don't arrest us for copying them).  Again, the kingdom of heaven is like unto treasure hid in a field;  the which when a man hath found, he hideth,  and for joy thereof goeth and selleth all that he hath, and buyeth that field. Even though people know this as a bible story, I see a leave and cleave in this too.  I am mighty excited about  Nicole C. Mullen and  Donnie  McClurkin 's  upcoming  nuptials  . I watched the beginning of this video   and my heart was glad, the whole video is very cool. When next you want to advise me to reel in a man, Please remember that a man has to be willing to go out of his way to want to love me and pray for me and wash me and cover me with the wor...

Phillipians 4:6-8 (MSG) Don't fret or worry. Instead of worrying, pray. Let petitions and praises shape your worries into prayers, letting God know your concerns. Before you know it, a sense of God's wholeness, everything coming together for good, will come and settle you down. It's wonderful what happens when Christ displaces worry at the center of your life. I have said and heard this words many times. But i just saw it for the first time that 1. When you worry, you are easing substituting prayer in your mind. 2. Worries and Prayers can be shaped. 3. God knows everything but you can still ALLOW HIM KNOW your concerns. 4. Putting christ or worry at the center of your life is up to you.  Recently i have had to question peace. What is the best way to explain peace?  Is it a sense of feeling empty, bland or void of emotion?  Now i realise that the feeling like your life is all over the place, splattered like a juicy tomato against the wall and it seems like someo...