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Just be held

If you have ever been close to a loved one or dear friend when your heart is broken and you feel like shattering, and they just wrap you up and allow you wail. You are always grateful to just be held. If you were scared and then someone you trust a lot just shows up, the embrace you receive sends you instantly to a place of comfort. If you are an outlier, a loner and probably don't roll with the crowd, when you get into your zone there's nothing that can be compared with that.
When paul prays that the peace of God should garrison your heart, that is exactly what he is telling you to allow yourself experience. The fortress that God provides comes with peace. A barracks that is not seen usually just felt.
The month of December is ending on an interesting note for me. From Night of worship to Experience. I have been someone that is used to having intermittent breaks and the feeling of self reliance and macho because of my self perceived  competence makes it very difficult to sometimes just sit back and wait for someone to pick you up. When the bible records that David encouraged himself in the Lord, its not because he wouldn't have wanted to be fretted over, i guess he had been everybody's hero for so long that he couldn't bring himself to trust that someone could be his hero and  be good at it.
This year's edition of The Experience Lagos is one I would not forget in a hurry. First because Don Moen made me remember that God made me exclusively to touch His very existence with my unique touch, voice, heat signature and mix of issues. Anytime i'm having a bad hair day, |I can choose to ignore him, hustle the grind on my own and be deflated or just stop and hang with him because with all the millions and billions of creatures He made. I have a corner in His heart with my name on it. So rich or poor, made up or bare faced He has searched the galaxies and found that there's only one me He loves and there's something about my praise He loves so. Anytime I run away, I do myself great disservice because I miss out on the biggest bearhug ever that can fix anything.


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