Are you faithful with where you are?

Hello people,

I have been away for far too long, chasing life basically ( but we all know that's an excuse).

Today I had a discussion with someone that works as a janitor in my office and I was faced with this question.

Usually, typical me, good girl routine, moral standards (well the height is relative), and all of a sudden at this late hour, I am testing all my boundaries (well, those that I don't really get to talk about much) and I'm worried for me. Not because those things are bad in themselves but they are things that were never a part of my story and it seems like I have flung caution to the wind.

Yes, self-preservation is good but at what cost?

Recently, I have asked this question to myself a million times a day. It is honestly never easy. Your mind betrays you, your thoughts betray you, your loved ones betray you because in looking out for you sometimes they all lead you into places that don't align with the terms and conditions of where you are.

Gratefully, the bible had known this will come along and has provided a cloud of witnesses both physical and historical. They may have a different scenario but the feeling ring deep. In all their lives, daily they pick up their cross and follow, just as we were commanded to.

Joseph, Esther, did it. David had a beautiful mix of self-preservation and faithfulness. Their example is still very relevant today

As He is in the world so are we, take up your cross and follow, ye are of God little children for you have overcome the world and this is the victory that overcomes the world, even our faith.

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