I am learning that God brings you out of your comfort zone and safety net just to have you all to himself. Is it funny?, NOO.
Is it Easy?, Not in the least.
The longest part is when he is stripping you of you.
Try compounding that with becoming a housewife in a new country after being in back to back employment for 10 years. A first time mom with a new child that is also trying to figure out this earth experience with you.
There are days you will feel like you are trapped in your home, moving from bedroom to parlor, and back to the bedroom, pacifying a new baby, and looking for a pacifier yourself.
Today was one of those days, I had really hoped that I could live a little through the stories of a workday but if wishes were horses.
Then after getting her royal highness to sleep, you have to struggle with a computer screen, at some point, you just drop everything and begin to look inwards.
That's right after the filtering noises of a club playing music sounds like an old companion, because they are playing music from "home" and you wonder, What is home?
This is music you used to lift your nose to, and tell the uber driver to change the radio station. Now, you embrace it with all sense of gusto because it's in familiar language.
You then begin to wonder, what is native to me?
What is home? What is comfort?
The thought that you are a foreign emissary doesn't really cheer you, rather it feels like another layer of work has yet been added to what you have on your plate.
Change and growth can feel lonely at times but you should get to choose your narrative.
Choose a frame of reference that reminds you that greatness lies on your inside and only the best will do.
What is your frame of reference?
What is your narrative?
"As a man thinketh in His heart, so is he, Who are you in your heart?"
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