Life and Me... Memoirs of a church girl

There are times when you hear the word of God or keep it close and then something stares you right in the face and they well up like a spring inside of you. For me, in those times, I look for quick fixes like intensive service and accelerated giving. When those things don't fill up my feelings. I go around doing "bami allah" looking for pity, prayer, anything you can spare really. This is until I can find something that "helps" ( complete with the hand gesture). Three times in my life, I have encountered issues that all these things didn't work for and I couldn't run. I had to sit still on my hands and wait.  When I had to hear who to marry, for instance, I had to come into a place where all the noise was shut out and when I had been sure, it seemed like I was high. It was a quiet stubbornness and even when issues came up around the choice, my heart was fixed.  When issues that come heavy laden with self-doubt show up, once your faith is fixed, there...

When we apply for jobs, self-leadership is a critical factor that employers look for. They forget to add that the self-leadership includes mind-reading of both your boss and client and always being a cutting edge solution provider. Now adult online education is the next near thing to that. being that I love social interaction, schooling with colleagues I may never meet on discussion boards people don't get to use, I kinda feel left out. The readings are a constant reminder that you are very much in school and adding that to deadlines and life generally puts the extra in DSTV extra. At some point ( more like 2 courses later) I had an eureka moment and I have decided that in order to build my writing for the 3000 word long assignments I will start writing my thoughts from the weekly reading because when I read without those I feel like I didn't read (no thanks to study groups and discussion classes). So I welcome you all to share this journey with me but not the cer...

Recently I just got married and honestly, I had been worried about many things like will I blend well, will I be a good wife and mom, what does this mean for my career, what does this mean for me, will I have to die to be perfect? Then in the midst of this everyone that loved me ( they say its those that love you that will tell you the truth right?) was "advising" me on self-improvement strategies to be "perfect". It did not help. I also noticed that anger was festering on the surface and I really didn't know how to put out all the fires at once. The fact that I wasn't praying as much as I would have loved to (or at all, we were in the "Hey God, ok I love you bye bye" ish) I sat up one night with the truckload of work I had left undone and was having a worry bout. Then the holy spirit asked me to build up a praise journal. As I picked up the nearest book, I discovered that I had a praise journal that I had written earlier that he had started doin...

So I came to another much talked about state in the country that I have not been privileged to visit before now. These are some of the things that caught my eye while I was in Bauchi. I had been seeing this jet cream in advertorials, it was surprising to see that it is still on the shelf. Let us see if we will find more interesting things as we go along.

My fav subject - Sun Travelling through  Nature's gift from any part leaves you with a sense that it is truly God's gift. from the easy people to the assortment of geographical features and agricultural produces. You will agree it is a sight for sore eyes. Felt cute taking this, it grows everywhere On this trip, I focused on how people are living in the midst of the beauty they are surrounded by. The fact it was harmattan season tells a different story. Local makeshift kitchen, couldn't take people because there was no consent My favourite word right now is angwai and it really paints a picture of a community more like on the hamlet level where everyone's folks know their children's uncle's second wife's boyfriend (you get the gist). Car Dealer's shed, but spot the cute skyline Like the Taraba people, we work with the environment so we have to make the most and build communities based on what we feel is important to us.  Alw...

Love and giving go hand in hand. God loved and he gave.  So I fell in love recently and I got a gift. Yeah!!! I have been planning to get a camera for the longest time and Christmas came with a camera and a boy, how cool is that? So I am a Christmas lover that starts smelling Christmas from November, makes sure I have lights even if I don't get a tree. So you must understand that a getting gift that is exactly what I want in a season I love is the best thing after party jollof and soggy dodo with fried dry pepper beef. So this is me transitioning from phone photography to actual photography. Phone photography helped me develop an eye and determine what I really enjoy. I cannot see enough of the sun, there is just something about taking pictures of the sun that makes me happy. Sunset in Jalingo, Taraba Nigeria. The morale of the story is start from where you are, be intentional and make sure you fan to flame the gift of God on your inside. Looking forward to an amaz...

Love accounts are very different from the usual accounts we are used to. I reason that love accounts operate on a hybrid of dos and donts that other accounts don't have.   They don't all operate the same because the different account holders have different languages and reactions to the same thing. Like a bank we all have to have two accounts the one from their end and the one from yours. In the last month I am learning that love is not enough and on days that it happens its the credit in your love account that saves the day. The thing about it is that you have to be intentional about saving so that you have what to withdraw. I read a story once about a couple that saved a physical dollar for every nice thing they experienced and on the bad days the narrative on the deposit stub saved the day. This thing called love sometimes you act in an entirely opposite direction and your heart is in a good place but every single turn reeks of wrong. The irony of it is whether y...