Adventure

I have been in a stock taking mood of late. Birthdays do that to me.

I have been wondering, where am I?,

what do i have?

What have i done?

How have i evolved?

Am i stuck?

Yeah usually i've been termed to be happy-go-lucky, but I'm still yet do decide if that's a good thing or a bad thing.

Earlier this year i went for a ladies only meeting and during that meeting for some strange reason, i just opened up all my doors and relaxed because 80% of the things i heard, i had heard before or known, but for some reason it just felt like sitting in the rain (Now no offence but you have been old your whole life if you never sat in the rain, sang in the rain, danced in the rain in your underwear or fully clothed or cried in the rain). 
The words just kept washing over me and after the meeting i felt lost. In places where i had heard this things before, I was known, I had a crew and sometimes family.

 Even though i tried to mingle a bit and do fellowship after fellowship but it felt very awkward. Even though i was in the midst of older ladies, i felt old and out of place. Apparently that was God's way of telling me to hold these things to chest.

So I came home and continued life. Gradually I started discovering myself having experiences that felt like i had gone through before, they were kinda cool because even though inside you may be really clueless i just got this feeling that I've seen this somewhere before and some kinda solution comes.

Then after sometime like a video clip for an English summary exam, different people's experiences just started washing over me, analysis of the decisions they took, their dispositions. It was like i was the one of the judges during an art competition. Unfortunately these stories were no fiction, these were real people that i knew had touched, handled and interacted with these things.

Till finally my turn came, and things were quiet and like an unending stream, all the things i had analysed became my marching orders. 

The surprise, the shock and the sheer delight i knew that i had before me a great cloud of witnesses. Even in areas where i would have done woefully or i didnt even get a pass mark i still exceeded my expectation because i never knew i had it in me, It was at that point i understood why i had to see, hear and remember all those things.

Sort out the little things they affect the big ones.

Recently with some sort of chagrin in my brother's voice he reminded me that i said  i wanted to be a tourist (i still want to be a tourist) when i grow up  because i want to travel the world. Adventures are varied, today marks the end of one adventure and the beginning of another one.
Truth is all the flimsy things even though they seem large to you they are just meant to block or retard progress so apparently they cant stop the growth, more like spoilers. 

To bring this to a full circle,Live, grow, move, create kodak moments, you only get one shot at living every minute that God has assigned to you so make it count. He gave you because he believes in you and knows you can do it. If par-adventure you have made mistakes, stand up, adjust, regroup and forge ahead. The past can only be the past at best so leave it behind.

 God believes in you, i believe in you, have faith in your faith (gist for another day). You aren't the first, may not be the last so go and start something new but know that how you handle it is the only difference you bring to the table, and that my friend is the so magical midas touch that causes a difference. 

Hebrews 12:1
The Amplified Bible
Therefore then, since we are surrounded by so great a cloud of witnesses [who have borne testimony to the Truth], let us strip off and throw aside every encumbrance (unnecessary weight) and that sin which so readily (deftly and cleverly) clings to and entangles us, and let us run with patient endurance and steady and active persistence the appointed course of the race that is set before us,

The Message

 Do you see what this means—all these pioneers who blazed the way, all these veterans cheering us on? It means we’d better get on with it. Strip down, start running—and never quit!

Encumbrance

n. noun

• 1. One that encumbers (to impede or hinder; hamper; retard;to block up or fill with what is obstructive or superfluous to burden or weigh down;to burden with obligations, debt, etc.); a burden or impediment.
• 2. A lien or claim on property that diminishes its value or affects transfer of ownership but does not prevent such transfer.