Life and Me... Memoirs of a church girl

That's what everything is called here. As long as the food has some kind of liquid it is plasas. From Okro, Egusi, Spinach, and Vegetable soup, everything is plasas. Imagine my surprise when I felt I was making giant strides in my krio language class: only to learn that all the exotic soups we struggle to classify back home are all shipped into a bowl called plasas. Are we commonizing the goodness and faithfulness of God? Are we trivializing the daily miracles we enjoy? You are not medication dependent, institutionalized or incarcerated somewhere but, you don't seem to find a reason for gratitude? I think you make just have a case of plasas syndrome. It has been raining back to back here, and I was complaining. Looking at this picture I took a few months ago, gratitude wells up from inside my heart for many things 1. Life to be able to witness the changing seasons 2. Eyes that can see the breathtaking view  3. The mental faculty to understand and enjoy what my eyes see. When ne...

I am learning that God brings you out of your comfort zone and safety net just to have you all to himself. Is it funny?, NOO. Is it Easy?, Not in the least. The longest part is when he is stripping you of you. Try compounding that with becoming a housewife in a new country after being in back to back employment for 10 years. A first time mom with a new child that is also trying to figure out this earth experience with you. There are days you will feel like you are trapped in your home, moving from bedroom to parlor, and back to the bedroom, pacifying a new baby, and looking for a pacifier yourself. Today was one of those days, I had really hoped that I could live a little through the stories of a workday but if wishes were horses.  Then after getting her royal highness to sleep, you have to struggle with a computer screen, at some point, you just drop everything and begin to look inwards. That's right after the filtering noises of a club playing music sounds like an old companion, ...

          First time I crossed from Lungi, a local boat on the shore I have just realised that every time something happens that should give me a reason to be sad, God always gives me an assignment to look forward to. Kind of reminds me of the scripture that says forgetting the things that are behind, I press on to the mark of the high calling. Emotions are not the truth. God's word is true. Know this and know peace. This is me publicly declaring Lord I am grateful for everything we have gone through together in 2021. I judge you faithful because you have helped me and kept your promise to me over and over again.

I have been a mom for two months and I think my greatest challenge has been waiting. Waiting during the pregnancy period and wondering what the baby would look like,  what delivery will feel like,  will the things I bought be enough? Then the child comes and everything is meant to align to her timetable. Sleep when she is sleeping they say, do they remember Deborah has a work deliverable waiting on you? Sleep when she is sleeping they advise, that is except you are preparing their lunch, then you can stay awake, finish cooking, serve and clean the kitchen. Then there is the ministry of helps that you are not sure how to receive. They can only help you in their convenience which is kind of confusing because you do not really need the kind of help they are offering and the next thing you hear is "Use all the help you get" After some time, you get to a point where you are in a rhythm you don't know how it started but it doesn't reflect what you do and you are focused on ...

I feel like some people will roll their eyes at the thought of a love struck Husband man. Yup in this day and age that is something we celebrate with gusto.  Thinking of not only yourself but also the person beside you. Seeking out happiness for the one you love. I believe it takes faith to love and it's that faith that oils the engine of our work. We work with you as you think through how to express that love.  At the beginning of this month our client wanted to make sure distance and time was not a barrier to loving his wife. He didn't sound like he had a plan but his willingness to try was enough for us. At the end of the day, a love tank was full, we reduce the void created by absence and distance  abit and so we went to bed with a smile knowing that our job is done. Do I have lessons learnt, of course that is something that comes hand in hand with growing, Change! Happy people love love Confetti and Cake slices Me.

I used a big word today: Kaleidoscope.  If I were to play 4 pictures and one word, that would be my word for today. That would be the word that Grammarly would most likely flag in my vocabulary today. I feel many things today, things that I didn't expect to feel, things that I have to allow myself to feel even though I know everyone has passed round a list of expected feelings and thoughts that they expect me to choose from.  Picture1: My last office mate and I. Picture 2: My first office mates and I. Today is my last day at a job I have had for 3 years and 3 months. Actually, 3 years, 3 months, and 8 days when I began work there. 3 years of highs and lows, questioning myself, wondering, and second-guessing. 3 years of stumbling, learning,  success and becoming good at what I do. 3 years of earning my stripes and asserting myself to myself. For 3 years I have loved, I have worked, I have learned, I have grown, I have invested my life, and today, it all comes to an end. Th...